Sandals: Sam Edelman
Welcome to the first installment of my new weekly series: To Be Honest – #TBH for short.
Every Tuesday or Thursday of each week, I’ll be sharing my uncensored thoughts and opinions of things that have been on my mind; using this platform to publicly vent but also inquire/ask you guys of your own thoughts & opinions in response to what I’m sharing.
I want this to be a form of open communication between us all, as I genuinely care and appreciate what you guys have to say! No response is right or wrong, this is simply a discussion board – some topics might be more sensitive to others and note of discretion will be advised if necessary.
#TBH, IT MAKES ME BITTER WHEN MY BLOG IS BELITTLED BY PEOPLE IN MY INNER CIRCLE…
Recently, I’ve been getting passive aggressive stabs at my blog & essentially my career as a blogger by some people I wouldn’t have considered being capable of such a lack of support. Naturally I’m used to Internet trolls commenting rude statements on whatever I choose to publish, and I’m aware of the risks I’m taking when putting myself out there in such a vulnerable way. That is one of the most common things that bloggers need to have a backbone about, unfortunately.
But it really sucks when the people you believed would have your back or be on your side, regardless if they understand fully what you’re working your ass off to do, don’t prove to be supportive. It’s so easy to assume a blogger is somewhat of a narcissist, obsessed with social media and constantly needing to document x, y, z like your body needs its daily intake of water. I’ve realized recently that some of my closer people see me that way, and I’d be lying if I didn’t feel incredibly hurt that people who KNOW and HAVE KNOWN me for years have suddenly changed their tune solely based on the career I’ve chosen to have and pursue.
What so many people don’t realize is that 90% of the time, bloggers DO NOT want to be engaging 24/7 – we do it because IT’S OUR JOB. It’s what we ultimately get paid to do – promote products, remain engaging and relatable, build our follower base so our opportunities to collaborate become more frequent, etc. The list goes on and on. Honestly whenever I’m done promoting whatever I needed to share on a given day, I feel a sense of relief to be done. When being on your phone becomes a job itself, you start to resist posting anything when you aren’t required to – hence why I oftentimes go MIA on the weekends…
Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love my job and what I’m doing and by no means want to give any of it up. But at the same time, feeling like I have to prove something to my inner circle doesn’t give me excitement when wondering what is being said or thought of behind my back, from the people who have known me before my blogging career and whose opinions I take to heart.